So I really miss Allison lately. I keep thinking about her and wanting to talk to her and know how she is. So it's a good thing that I threw her number away and can't recall it because that was not a productive relationship and if I had her number I'd call. Then I'd be caught up in that whole destructive cycle again. I mean she was bi, wanted to be straight, couldn't understand why she was attacted to me and any time we would do anything together she'd cry afterward even though she was the one who started it. I was cool with trying to be only friends with her, but she would always push for more and then be upset by that. Also she didn't have a job or go to school. So I don't know what I was thinking. Am not sure what I am thinking. She had this spunk though, this attitude. I was over her, but now I keep thinking about her.
It's ridiculous.
It's ridiculous.