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Argh!

I'm in such a grrrr state of mind right now.

My last post had all sorts of screw up and I'm sure this one will be worse so sorry ahead of time.

Yesterday I worked late and when I was nearly home I realized that I hadn't clocked out when I left so when I got home I called and talked to the manager on duty. We're friends and he's one of my favorite people to work with. When I got off I had to explain the whole thing to my grandma and I mentioned what I great guy he was and now she thinks I want him or something. When I got home from work a little while ago she started in on me asking me how he was and what was he doing and I'm just going huh? He didn't even work today. She's asking me all these questions like I should be interested in him as more than a friend. It's fustrating. And the thing I guess that makes it such a sore point is that my brother has said similar things to me about him, he thinks I should date this guy and that he likes me or something.

We're just friends.

I don't know why no one gets that. He understands I like girls, why can't my family?

Why does my family have to live in denial? I mean with my parents I simply mention I like an actor and they suddenly are giving me these knowing smiles and act like it's a big deal. It's not. Just cause I admire someone work doesn't mean I want to jump them or something, it just means I respect their work. I'd say just that but I know that it'd start an argument between me and father and I want to avoid as many of those as I can before I move out of his mothers.

I guess I'm just feeling stuck.

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Argh!

I'm in such a grrrr state of mind right now.

My last post had all sorts of screw up and I'm sure this one will be worse so sorry ahead of time.

Yesterday I worked late and when I was nearly home I realized that I hadn't clocked out when I left so when I got home I called and talked to the manager on duty. We're friends and he's one of my favorite people to work with. When I got off I had to explain the whole thing to my grandma and I mentioned what I great guy he was and now she thinks I want him or something. When I got home from work a little while ago she started in on me asking me how he was and what was he doing and I'm just going huh? He didn't even work today. She's asking me all these questions like I should be interested in him as more than a friend. It's fustrating. And the thing I guess that makes it such a sore point is that my brother has said similar things to me about him, he thinks I should date this guy and that he likes me or something.

We're just friends.

I don't know why no one gets that. He understands I like girls, why can't my family?

Why does my family have to live in denial? I mean with my parents I simply mention I like an actor and they suddenly are giving me these knowing smiles and act like it's a big deal. It's not. Just cause I admire someone work doesn't mean I want to jump them or something, it just means I respect their work. I'd say just that but I know that it'd start an argument between me and father and I want to avoid as many of those as I can before I move out of his mothers.

I guess I'm just feeling stuck.

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Am much calmer now after having bummed around online and briefly glancing at some fanfic.

I was suppose to have the rest of the night off, I'd planned to do some writing since my head is so full I feel like it's all starting to gather up to a point where I can't deal.

My brother was suppose to close tonight, but he's had to get up tomorrow at 7:30 to drive to Canton to do filming and then he has to work after. I was suppose to have tomorrow off, but needed to pick up some hours so I said I'd come in during lunch. Now I'm suppose to go back to Taco Bell at twelve and finish my brother's close for him so he can go home and get some sleep.

Am not looking forward to it, but it'll be good for him and I'll pick up some extra hours.

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Am much calmer now after having bummed around online and briefly glancing at some fanfic.

I was suppose to have the rest of the night off, I'd planned to do some writing since my head is so full I feel like it's all starting to gather up to a point where I can't deal.

My brother was suppose to close tonight, but he's had to get up tomorrow at 7:30 to drive to Canton to do filming and then he has to work after. I was suppose to have tomorrow off, but needed to pick up some hours so I said I'd come in during lunch. Now I'm suppose to go back to Taco Bell at twelve and finish my brother's close for him so he can go home and get some sleep.

Am not looking forward to it, but it'll be good for him and I'll pick up some extra hours.