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My grandma's upset because she feels I'm too busy. I work tonight and the GSA picnic is tomorrow and I've spent part of the day getting ready for it, shopping etc. It worries me, if she's upset now how is she going to react when school starts and I have no down time? Oh well, she'll have to get used to it I suppose, because there's nothing I can do about being busy except stop having a life all together.

Took my brother advice for handling my mom today. Instead of saying I had a get together with the GSA I said I had a get together with some friends and could I please borrow the ice chest. Next thing I know she's handing over as many supplies as she can let me borrow. If I'd have said GSA she'd have given me that disapproving look that says I want to disapprove, want to tell her not to do this, but she's twenty-two now and I can't and then have told me to ask my father. So doing it my brother's way made it work for both of us, except I feel like I'm lying to her by omitting the truth and I hate feeling like I'm lying to her or hiding part of who I am.

At least I can take my cousin Lisa with me, and she knows it a GSA picnic, and she cool with that. Last year she proudly told me that she signed the petition at her high school to start a GSA so that's another family member besides my Grandma and Aunt Pam whose proud of me. I should be happy, I should be even satisified with that, but I'm not. Some days being gay is harder then others.

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My grandma's upset because she feels I'm too busy. I work tonight and the GSA picnic is tomorrow and I've spent part of the day getting ready for it, shopping etc. It worries me, if she's upset now how is she going to react when school starts and I have no down time? Oh well, she'll have to get used to it I suppose, because there's nothing I can do about being busy except stop having a life all together.

Took my brother advice for handling my mom today. Instead of saying I had a get together with the GSA I said I had a get together with some friends and could I please borrow the ice chest. Next thing I know she's handing over as many supplies as she can let me borrow. If I'd have said GSA she'd have given me that disapproving look that says I want to disapprove, want to tell her not to do this, but she's twenty-two now and I can't and then have told me to ask my father. So doing it my brother's way made it work for both of us, except I feel like I'm lying to her by omitting the truth and I hate feeling like I'm lying to her or hiding part of who I am.

At least I can take my cousin Lisa with me, and she knows it a GSA picnic, and she cool with that. Last year she proudly told me that she signed the petition at her high school to start a GSA so that's another family member besides my Grandma and Aunt Pam whose proud of me. I should be happy, I should be even satisified with that, but I'm not. Some days being gay is harder then others.