I'm confused.

I passed my compentency. I did the whole head to toe assessment without skipping any steps. I ran through it like it was nothing.

I also took my test beforehand. I felt good handing it in. There were one or two question where I wasn't sure I had the right answer, but I felt okay about it. Then everyone was talking afterward and I realized I had three to four questions wrong. Now I'm self-doubting and worried I didn't pass this test.

I did the math. I could've missed up to four questions and still have a high enough grade that it would pull up my whole grade enough to be passing the class.

I went to bed last night as soon as I got home from school because my head hurt so bad. Now it's five in the morning and I can't sleep anymore. I just keep thinking I screwed up. Critical thinking is hard, but it shouldn't be this hard.

I know, except for those three that I know now that I missed, that I picked out right responses, but I don't know if I picked out 'the best right answer' and gave the correct response. I just don't know right now.

There is one question that is upsetting me though. It was about when a women can stop having pap smears. I didn't know what to answer. The lecture and powerpoint she gave us told us 70 and after 3 normal paps smears. That wasn't one of the answers and I immediantly didn't choose the answer of 65 since it wasn't 70. My lab partner went over the book after because she too hadn't picked 65 because it wasn't what the teacher had told us. She found it in a small section on health promotion. The book says 65. We did point this out to her right before we took our comp., but it probably doesn't change that the right answer was 65 and neither of us went with that.

I did ask her about indiscrepancies between the book and her lecture and she looked after class and what should we go with for the test. The look she gave me! She couldn't believe that there would be indescrepencies. So I pointed out to her that she said the risk for breast cancer was higher with woman who started their period before age 12 and experienced menopause after age 55. According to the book it's 12 and 50, which I found kinda odd as well since the book went on to say that the mean age for women to begin menopause was 50.

What I'm trying to say is that even though it's hard and sometimes confusing I want to pass this class. I want to be a nurse. I want to pass this program. If I don't pass this class then it's considered two failures in a row and I'm out of the program. I know this. I checked the handbook. While there would be other options, there are other schools in the area and I could always see if I could get into CSU's program, this program I'm in now is considered one of the best. I'm also am not liking the idea that I might have to start all over when I've already put so much time into this program. I don't want to have worked so hard towards this nursing program to no longer be in this program.

I'm confused. I'm upset. At the same time I don't know anything until my grade is posted. There is also the final to consider.