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Yesterday was horrible. I was having one of those hormonal days where all I want to do is randomly cry because I'm so sad for no reason. I don't get those often, only usually when I'm ovulating. The bouts of sadness I’ve had since going off my birth control haven’t been as bad as they were when I first started birth control. I think this is because I have better coping mechanisms and can recognized that I’m feeling sad due to the time of the month and not just because I’m suddenly sad. So unless this gets worse I’m not going to stress about it. It’d be nice to be on it, but I can’t afford it and my insurance won’t help because there is a generic available and they want me to get that. Except I have interstitial cystitis and the generic makes me have the kind of flair up that leaves me in so much pain I can’t really do anything…so birth control is one of those things I don’t have.
That was probably too much information for yesterday sucked and I was sad. Spending a lot of energy to keep myself from crying was not what made it horrible though…I worked. I finished my eight hour shift and agreed to work a 12 because they were short. Then the guy who was supposed to follow me never showed up. When they finally got a hold of him it turned out he’d already called off early that morning and somehow this didn’t get passed on. Then someone else called off. I went into work at 630 am and didn’t leave until 930 pm. Thankfully they were grateful I stayed and understood that I wasn’t going to work a double. By 930 I was falling asleep on my feet and didn’t feel that I’d be safe to drive home if I finished out the shift.
Today’s been very slow and mostly about rehydrating myself since I let myself have soda yesterday and I’ve been good about not drinking soda lately. I’d hope to get some writing in, but I think I’m going to do some embroidery and watch some TV.
This week hasn’t been bad though. I had a good Valentine day. My best friend took me out for a drink and then we went to her place to hang-out with another friend. Afterward I spent time with my grandmother and my dad. Then my dad let me borrow his TV so I could watch Glee.
That was probably too much information for yesterday sucked and I was sad. Spending a lot of energy to keep myself from crying was not what made it horrible though…I worked. I finished my eight hour shift and agreed to work a 12 because they were short. Then the guy who was supposed to follow me never showed up. When they finally got a hold of him it turned out he’d already called off early that morning and somehow this didn’t get passed on. Then someone else called off. I went into work at 630 am and didn’t leave until 930 pm. Thankfully they were grateful I stayed and understood that I wasn’t going to work a double. By 930 I was falling asleep on my feet and didn’t feel that I’d be safe to drive home if I finished out the shift.
Today’s been very slow and mostly about rehydrating myself since I let myself have soda yesterday and I’ve been good about not drinking soda lately. I’d hope to get some writing in, but I think I’m going to do some embroidery and watch some TV.
This week hasn’t been bad though. I had a good Valentine day. My best friend took me out for a drink and then we went to her place to hang-out with another friend. Afterward I spent time with my grandmother and my dad. Then my dad let me borrow his TV so I could watch Glee.