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So I decided that my character on Ranger Quest has a journal. I'm planning on crossposting it here.
Dear Journal thingy,
I haven’t written in awhile. I’m not sure I’m allowed anymore, now that I’m a Power Ranger. It seems not safe to keep a journal anymore, but there was a fear monster on our recent mission and this always seems to help.
The fear monster became a fearcat for me. They still scare me. I wish I could talk to my therapist on the station about it. She always had good suggestions and maybe she could help me understand my teammates better. I’m not sure what I’m doing wrong. Vant can turn into animals and I’m was still getting over trying not to be scared of the fear monster and he turned into a cat! He kept jumping at me, even though I was so scared I was clinging to Kasha. I’m not sure what I did to upset him so much that he’d want to scare me like that. I don’t know what to do to make him not upset with me anymore.
I’ve been hiding since we got back to our space ship. I’ve made myself an area in the maintenance tubes. Beta tried to move my stuff back to my room, but I don’t feel safe there. Anyone could find me there! I don’t want to be snuck up on. Beta’s letting me sleep there now, it’s the only way I feel safe enough to try and sleep. I’m having nightmares again, but that’ll go away, eventually.
We rescued a guy named Billy that everyone seems to be really excited about. I was going to try and get a better look at him, but he’s surrounded by my teammates. I think I’m going to try and not let him notice me when he’s up and moving around. What if he takes my morpher away? What if he doesn’t like that I’m the one that ended up with something he put so much time and effort into? I didn’t want the morpher at first, was a bit panicked when I realized they were DNA locked, but he helped build them so he might be able to bypass that and I’m finding that I don’t like the idea of losing the morpher.
I did horribly on the last mission. That monster had Sean and I got scared even after realizing it was a fear monster that fed off fear. I shouldn’t have done that, but Vant was being a cat and kept trying to jump on me and that was too much after having seen a fearcat. I don’t think Sean will accept an apology, he’s too nice sometimes. Maybe I should give him one anyway? I don’t know what to do except be disappointed in myself. I could ask Kasha, but I don’t know about trying to be friends with her yet. She refused to fight one of the early monsters in this mission because she thought it was cute. She could’ve gotten us killed! I’m so angry with her about that, but now I don’t think I can be angry because I hid behind her when I was scared. I hope Sara isn’t angry with me for doing so poorly. I’m not sure I’ll be able to work myself up to asking since I find her a bit intimidating. This teammate thing is confusing.
Have to go, stuff is happening.
Dear Journal thingy,
I haven’t written in awhile. I’m not sure I’m allowed anymore, now that I’m a Power Ranger. It seems not safe to keep a journal anymore, but there was a fear monster on our recent mission and this always seems to help.
The fear monster became a fearcat for me. They still scare me. I wish I could talk to my therapist on the station about it. She always had good suggestions and maybe she could help me understand my teammates better. I’m not sure what I’m doing wrong. Vant can turn into animals and I’m was still getting over trying not to be scared of the fear monster and he turned into a cat! He kept jumping at me, even though I was so scared I was clinging to Kasha. I’m not sure what I did to upset him so much that he’d want to scare me like that. I don’t know what to do to make him not upset with me anymore.
I’ve been hiding since we got back to our space ship. I’ve made myself an area in the maintenance tubes. Beta tried to move my stuff back to my room, but I don’t feel safe there. Anyone could find me there! I don’t want to be snuck up on. Beta’s letting me sleep there now, it’s the only way I feel safe enough to try and sleep. I’m having nightmares again, but that’ll go away, eventually.
We rescued a guy named Billy that everyone seems to be really excited about. I was going to try and get a better look at him, but he’s surrounded by my teammates. I think I’m going to try and not let him notice me when he’s up and moving around. What if he takes my morpher away? What if he doesn’t like that I’m the one that ended up with something he put so much time and effort into? I didn’t want the morpher at first, was a bit panicked when I realized they were DNA locked, but he helped build them so he might be able to bypass that and I’m finding that I don’t like the idea of losing the morpher.
I did horribly on the last mission. That monster had Sean and I got scared even after realizing it was a fear monster that fed off fear. I shouldn’t have done that, but Vant was being a cat and kept trying to jump on me and that was too much after having seen a fearcat. I don’t think Sean will accept an apology, he’s too nice sometimes. Maybe I should give him one anyway? I don’t know what to do except be disappointed in myself. I could ask Kasha, but I don’t know about trying to be friends with her yet. She refused to fight one of the early monsters in this mission because she thought it was cute. She could’ve gotten us killed! I’m so angry with her about that, but now I don’t think I can be angry because I hid behind her when I was scared. I hope Sara isn’t angry with me for doing so poorly. I’m not sure I’ll be able to work myself up to asking since I find her a bit intimidating. This teammate thing is confusing.
Have to go, stuff is happening.
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Oh my god, can we please at some point do a scene with Riley and Billy between gaming sessions? Because I am really feeling a need to be mentor-ly and help her feels.
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