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I had a realization of sorts today that I finally have the same personality as I did when I first got involved with Linda. It's only taken a few years to get it back. It's a good feeling, like maybe I can put all the things I went through because of her behind me and that it can work out.
I'm changing subjects now.
My Aunt is scheduled to come in from out of state today. It's also snowing hard, so I'm hoping her that everything goes alright with her flight.
I finished my Christmas shopping today, thank God. Am really sick of Christmas at this point, but I know I'll love seeing everyone open their presents. That's the best part, usually.
I had to close at work tonight. Becky's boyfriend once again wasn't home in time to watch their kid, and well with the rodes as bad as they were she stayed home. So instead of working four till ten I ended up working eight till close, two. I shoveled snow from four till four thirty then went home before I came back. It worked out okay, cept I'm slightly worried because Callie and my brother were planning on doing some sledding. I opted not to stay so I don't know that they're safe. The rodes were awful. I ended up getting stuck once. Some girls stopped and tried to help me, then this guy came along with a plow on his car and with his help my car was soon unstuck. Now my car is stuck at the end of the driveway. It took me awhile of driving it back and forth to get it enough in the driveway that it wasn't going to get slammed by a plow truck.
I've decided that the next time I get a car it is going to have four wheel drive and that it'll be higher off the ground because my bottom was scrapping the snow as I drove and that can't be good for my car. In my defence I didn't really pick out this car. My dad said green automatic or blue stick and I said that there was no way I was going to drive an automatic so give me the blue stick. Hence I own a little blue Kia Rio. Yah, for me.
Work was okay, much better then yesterday. Am not talking about yesterday, already vent to some co-workers who were all of the opinion that I should have just walked out and then talked to the GM. They felt that if I had just left, then explained to the General Manager why I left that she wouldn't have fired me. Am not up for taking that risk. I need a new job before I do anything that jepordizes this one.
Dewon, one of the guys I work with, told me not to worry about today cause my brother would be there and he's stick up for me. When I got quiet, I didn't want to tell him that my brother's picked up some of the teasing, he told me that my brother better be looking out of me or he'll 'beat him up'. He was joking I know and trying to make me feel better. He also threw a snowball at me, the brat.
I ended up giving Jevonte a ride to the bus stop. He inisted on giving me five dollars because I've given him more then one ride up there this week. I didn't want to take his money, but he shoved it into my hand and wouldn't be refused. He was concerned for me about what happened with Devin. I told him not to worry about it, that one of the managers told me that if he bothers me again to let her know and she'll write him up for harrasment. Jevonte wanted to know if we were talking yet. I told him that since Devin only had rude things to say to me that I'm pretty much ignoring him. The interesting thing about the car ride, and time with Jevonte is always interesting. He feels very open about talking about sex with me. Anyway he actually listened to some of my music without complaining, usually he complains because he wants to listen to his music. I had the Placebo single for Without You I'm Nothing and was playing it. Asked him if he knew who David Bowie was and he didn't so I gave him the case. He was looking at it and eventually pointed to one of the guys and wanted to know if that was Brian, cause he knows I think the lead singer is hot. I glanced at it and said no that's Steve. So he pointed to the other guy and I said no. I pointed to Brian.
I wish I could have seen his face because he immediantely said that that's a girl I said no that's Brian. He was like, but look at all her eyeliner. Then he got all swoony, 'look at her lips.' It took him a moment to realize that yes that was a boy. Needless to say this threw him and he didn't know how to take it.
This ended up turning the conversation slightly homophobic on his part. It always weirds me out when I meet people who are okay with me, but not okay with men. Jevonte said he's okay with everyone (with that typical straight guy thing of saying 'as long as they don't try anything with me') unless one of his kids didn't turn out gay. I tried to explain that one didn't turn out gay, that a person is born this way. It was an odd and slightly fustrating converstation.
I'm changing subjects now.
My Aunt is scheduled to come in from out of state today. It's also snowing hard, so I'm hoping her that everything goes alright with her flight.
I finished my Christmas shopping today, thank God. Am really sick of Christmas at this point, but I know I'll love seeing everyone open their presents. That's the best part, usually.
I had to close at work tonight. Becky's boyfriend once again wasn't home in time to watch their kid, and well with the rodes as bad as they were she stayed home. So instead of working four till ten I ended up working eight till close, two. I shoveled snow from four till four thirty then went home before I came back. It worked out okay, cept I'm slightly worried because Callie and my brother were planning on doing some sledding. I opted not to stay so I don't know that they're safe. The rodes were awful. I ended up getting stuck once. Some girls stopped and tried to help me, then this guy came along with a plow on his car and with his help my car was soon unstuck. Now my car is stuck at the end of the driveway. It took me awhile of driving it back and forth to get it enough in the driveway that it wasn't going to get slammed by a plow truck.
I've decided that the next time I get a car it is going to have four wheel drive and that it'll be higher off the ground because my bottom was scrapping the snow as I drove and that can't be good for my car. In my defence I didn't really pick out this car. My dad said green automatic or blue stick and I said that there was no way I was going to drive an automatic so give me the blue stick. Hence I own a little blue Kia Rio. Yah, for me.
Work was okay, much better then yesterday. Am not talking about yesterday, already vent to some co-workers who were all of the opinion that I should have just walked out and then talked to the GM. They felt that if I had just left, then explained to the General Manager why I left that she wouldn't have fired me. Am not up for taking that risk. I need a new job before I do anything that jepordizes this one.
Dewon, one of the guys I work with, told me not to worry about today cause my brother would be there and he's stick up for me. When I got quiet, I didn't want to tell him that my brother's picked up some of the teasing, he told me that my brother better be looking out of me or he'll 'beat him up'. He was joking I know and trying to make me feel better. He also threw a snowball at me, the brat.
I ended up giving Jevonte a ride to the bus stop. He inisted on giving me five dollars because I've given him more then one ride up there this week. I didn't want to take his money, but he shoved it into my hand and wouldn't be refused. He was concerned for me about what happened with Devin. I told him not to worry about it, that one of the managers told me that if he bothers me again to let her know and she'll write him up for harrasment. Jevonte wanted to know if we were talking yet. I told him that since Devin only had rude things to say to me that I'm pretty much ignoring him. The interesting thing about the car ride, and time with Jevonte is always interesting. He feels very open about talking about sex with me. Anyway he actually listened to some of my music without complaining, usually he complains because he wants to listen to his music. I had the Placebo single for Without You I'm Nothing and was playing it. Asked him if he knew who David Bowie was and he didn't so I gave him the case. He was looking at it and eventually pointed to one of the guys and wanted to know if that was Brian, cause he knows I think the lead singer is hot. I glanced at it and said no that's Steve. So he pointed to the other guy and I said no. I pointed to Brian.
I wish I could have seen his face because he immediantely said that that's a girl I said no that's Brian. He was like, but look at all her eyeliner. Then he got all swoony, 'look at her lips.' It took him a moment to realize that yes that was a boy. Needless to say this threw him and he didn't know how to take it.
This ended up turning the conversation slightly homophobic on his part. It always weirds me out when I meet people who are okay with me, but not okay with men. Jevonte said he's okay with everyone (with that typical straight guy thing of saying 'as long as they don't try anything with me') unless one of his kids didn't turn out gay. I tried to explain that one didn't turn out gay, that a person is born this way. It was an odd and slightly fustrating converstation.