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this read only mode is driving me loopy. Got my post eaten yesterday.
Had a not so pleasent night at work. Was again with the guy I complained about. I just feel so drained when I work with him, and aggravated, which isn't like me. Usually I'm mellow and laid back. I feel stupid too and worthless because all the things that should get done in the morning go askew and I can't seem to keep anyone on schedule. I mean I know I can do my job and do it well, but when I work with him I'm scrambling and then I begin to question my ability to do my job and I'm sure others are too. The thing is I don't have these problems when I'm working with someone else.
My Dad came home last night, he's here today and then gone on business. My Grandma's all upset and I know my mom isn't happy. My brother seems kinda blah about it while I'm actually excited about him not being home. I'm not a very good daughter. I'm sorta still weirded out by the last time I saw him. I hadn't seen either him or my mom in a least four or five days. She gave me a big hug, he said hi and then inspected my teeth. I know he paid for my braces, but it still threw me.
Went to lunch with my Aunt and Mom yesterday and found out that my parents are using the college fund they set aside to pay for my brother's school. He's got to help pay if his grades aren't a certain level. Thing is when I started going to college they told me to not ask for money until I was going to a better school. My brother goes to the same school I do. I shouldn't be upset by it because I did get fustrated and tell them that I wanted all that money to go to Chad. It still hurts though. I have to struggle with them to even get them to fill out their section of my FASDA form and yet their helping him pay for school. I know my Grandma helps me, thing is she said he'd help him too, if he asked. Mentioned that and my parents jumped down my throat about how my brother 'isn't like that.'
Am going to stop now and go to class...cause well complain, complain, complain. I'm sure some of it even comes out whiney. Am done, will hopefully have a more cheerful post after I get some rest.
Had a not so pleasent night at work. Was again with the guy I complained about. I just feel so drained when I work with him, and aggravated, which isn't like me. Usually I'm mellow and laid back. I feel stupid too and worthless because all the things that should get done in the morning go askew and I can't seem to keep anyone on schedule. I mean I know I can do my job and do it well, but when I work with him I'm scrambling and then I begin to question my ability to do my job and I'm sure others are too. The thing is I don't have these problems when I'm working with someone else.
My Dad came home last night, he's here today and then gone on business. My Grandma's all upset and I know my mom isn't happy. My brother seems kinda blah about it while I'm actually excited about him not being home. I'm not a very good daughter. I'm sorta still weirded out by the last time I saw him. I hadn't seen either him or my mom in a least four or five days. She gave me a big hug, he said hi and then inspected my teeth. I know he paid for my braces, but it still threw me.
Went to lunch with my Aunt and Mom yesterday and found out that my parents are using the college fund they set aside to pay for my brother's school. He's got to help pay if his grades aren't a certain level. Thing is when I started going to college they told me to not ask for money until I was going to a better school. My brother goes to the same school I do. I shouldn't be upset by it because I did get fustrated and tell them that I wanted all that money to go to Chad. It still hurts though. I have to struggle with them to even get them to fill out their section of my FASDA form and yet their helping him pay for school. I know my Grandma helps me, thing is she said he'd help him too, if he asked. Mentioned that and my parents jumped down my throat about how my brother 'isn't like that.'
Am going to stop now and go to class...cause well complain, complain, complain. I'm sure some of it even comes out whiney. Am done, will hopefully have a more cheerful post after I get some rest.