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Title: I Dream of You
Fandom: BTVS
Pairing: Spike/Willow, Buffy/Angel
Rating: PG-15
Summary: S4 AU A dream demon's attack forces Spike to admit he has feelings for Willow.
Disclaimer: I own nothing to do with BTVS, it’s not my toy box. I’m merely playing.
A/N: The first part is Spike's version of the nightmare. Also Angel and Riley meet for the first time in this fic. Also as much as I love Willow and Tara as a couple in order for this fic to work they're just friends. Finally in this fic Oz's return is his first return to Sunnydale. I know that makes this very AU, but I made it work as I could. I wrote this while they were still in season 4 for a friend of mine, she's a heavy B/A shipper and at the time I was a heavy Willow/Spike shipper. Hence this fic is dedicated to Lindsey.
Chapter 11:
Spike slumped back onto Giles' bed, maybe now he could get some sleep. He glanced over to where Oz was still on top of Willow. They were staring at each other, obviously in shock. It passed quickly and Oz jumped away from her as if burned.
"I should go," he said in his usual monotone though there was an undertone of pain in his voice. As he turned towards the stairs he swayed almost falling, but Riley caught him.
"After you get some rest," Riley told Oz as he eased him onto Giles' bed.
"All of you get some sleep," Buffy ordered as she, Angel, Riley and Tara walked from the room.
When they got downstairs they all followed Tara out the front door.
Buffy smiled at her, "Thank you."
Tara smiled shyly, nodded and then hurried off.
Buffy slumped against the door, looking between Angel and Riley before speaking, "Riley we need to talk. I need to tell you about Angel and I..."
"Willow already did."
"What? What did she tell you? Why did she tell you?"
"She told me because I asked and she told me everything she could. I get everything, I mean I understand most of it, except I don't understand why Angel left you."
"So she could find normal, and she has."
"Normal?" Riley choked on the word, "She obviously hasn't told you about the Initiative. Besides what is normal anyway? If I had what you two had I wouldn't let it go, no matter how hard it was, no matter what obstacles stood in the way. Did it ever occur to you that Willow is a witch, and a good one? Given time she'd probably come up with a spell to make your soul permanent. You want to be fully honest with me don't you, your going to tell me you kissed. I know. I saw."
"But we do," whispered Buffy.
Riley looked at her in confusion, "We do what?"
"Have something special."
"Not like you and him."
Angel took an unnecessary breath, searching for the strength for what he'd have to do, get through to Riley that he, Angel, couldn't be with Buffy. That it was ultimately Riley she would end up with not he. He paused a moment more, feeling the tension that vibrated in the air, before speaking. And Riley listened, really listened to Angel explain why he couldn't be with the girl he loved with all his unbeating heart, and still Riley shook his head.
"You don't understand," Riley told them when Angel finished, " Nothing is ever perfect. We never will reach that fairy tale love, but that doesn't mean that if you find your soul-mate you give up because its hard. When you love someone that much you make it work no matter what or who gets in the way."
Buffy rushed to his side, "No, Riley. Don't you see, it has to be this way. I love you."
Riley brushed a lock of hair from her face, " You do love me and I love you, but your love for him is stronger, stronger then ours will ever be." Tears glistening in his eyes at the knowledge of what he was doing and the impact it would have on his life. His eyes memorized her face, needing this one last moment and needing one last kiss. His lips were gentle, barely touching, as light as a breeze and then he was gone, leaving his lover to her true love. He knew the road for them would be rough, rougher then his would ever be, and somehow that small bit of knowledge held its own solace.
Chapter: [1] [2] [3] [4] [5] [6] [7] [8] [9] [10] [11] [12]
Fandom: BTVS
Pairing: Spike/Willow, Buffy/Angel
Rating: PG-15
Summary: S4 AU A dream demon's attack forces Spike to admit he has feelings for Willow.
Disclaimer: I own nothing to do with BTVS, it’s not my toy box. I’m merely playing.
A/N: The first part is Spike's version of the nightmare. Also Angel and Riley meet for the first time in this fic. Also as much as I love Willow and Tara as a couple in order for this fic to work they're just friends. Finally in this fic Oz's return is his first return to Sunnydale. I know that makes this very AU, but I made it work as I could. I wrote this while they were still in season 4 for a friend of mine, she's a heavy B/A shipper and at the time I was a heavy Willow/Spike shipper. Hence this fic is dedicated to Lindsey.
Chapter 11:
Spike slumped back onto Giles' bed, maybe now he could get some sleep. He glanced over to where Oz was still on top of Willow. They were staring at each other, obviously in shock. It passed quickly and Oz jumped away from her as if burned.
"I should go," he said in his usual monotone though there was an undertone of pain in his voice. As he turned towards the stairs he swayed almost falling, but Riley caught him.
"After you get some rest," Riley told Oz as he eased him onto Giles' bed.
"All of you get some sleep," Buffy ordered as she, Angel, Riley and Tara walked from the room.
When they got downstairs they all followed Tara out the front door.
Buffy smiled at her, "Thank you."
Tara smiled shyly, nodded and then hurried off.
Buffy slumped against the door, looking between Angel and Riley before speaking, "Riley we need to talk. I need to tell you about Angel and I..."
"Willow already did."
"What? What did she tell you? Why did she tell you?"
"She told me because I asked and she told me everything she could. I get everything, I mean I understand most of it, except I don't understand why Angel left you."
"So she could find normal, and she has."
"Normal?" Riley choked on the word, "She obviously hasn't told you about the Initiative. Besides what is normal anyway? If I had what you two had I wouldn't let it go, no matter how hard it was, no matter what obstacles stood in the way. Did it ever occur to you that Willow is a witch, and a good one? Given time she'd probably come up with a spell to make your soul permanent. You want to be fully honest with me don't you, your going to tell me you kissed. I know. I saw."
"But we do," whispered Buffy.
Riley looked at her in confusion, "We do what?"
"Have something special."
"Not like you and him."
Angel took an unnecessary breath, searching for the strength for what he'd have to do, get through to Riley that he, Angel, couldn't be with Buffy. That it was ultimately Riley she would end up with not he. He paused a moment more, feeling the tension that vibrated in the air, before speaking. And Riley listened, really listened to Angel explain why he couldn't be with the girl he loved with all his unbeating heart, and still Riley shook his head.
"You don't understand," Riley told them when Angel finished, " Nothing is ever perfect. We never will reach that fairy tale love, but that doesn't mean that if you find your soul-mate you give up because its hard. When you love someone that much you make it work no matter what or who gets in the way."
Buffy rushed to his side, "No, Riley. Don't you see, it has to be this way. I love you."
Riley brushed a lock of hair from her face, " You do love me and I love you, but your love for him is stronger, stronger then ours will ever be." Tears glistening in his eyes at the knowledge of what he was doing and the impact it would have on his life. His eyes memorized her face, needing this one last moment and needing one last kiss. His lips were gentle, barely touching, as light as a breeze and then he was gone, leaving his lover to her true love. He knew the road for them would be rough, rougher then his would ever be, and somehow that small bit of knowledge held its own solace.
Chapter: [1] [2] [3] [4] [5] [6] [7] [8] [9] [10] [11] [12]