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Today in lab one of the other woman mentioned that she was going to talk to her doctor about getting some medication for some issues she was having. Another woman told her she shouldn't, that medication (refeering to medication for mental things) is used to often as a crutch. I chimed in about how my medication was helping me.
The look the other girl threw me was incrediably hostile. I don't know if she was looking down on me because I take medicine daily or if she was just upset that I challenged her assertion. The woman who was thinking about getting meds and I talked a bit, and I told her how mine was helping me. I'm not severly depressed to the point of feeling suicidal for one week out of the month and I can go to class without wanting to run out of the room because there are simply too many people in the class and I feel as if I'm going to have a panic attack. I can actually go to class and concentrate on my work instead of trying not to freak out. I know its helping me and that's what matters.
Even this last weekend it helped. After the Placebo concert (and I'm not sure I'd have even been able to do the concert if my meds hadn't been working) we went down to Bounce (a local gay club) to watch the drag show and dance. It was completely packed and sitting at the bar area, where there were barely any people helped me calm my nerves...before I'd have been straight out the door and trying to calm my breathing down. I ended up going back in and standing with my friends and it was a bit much for me, but I didn't panic. The really nice thing was James kept an eye on me, asked me if I was alright and then when I indicated that I didn't think I could do dancing asked if I wanted to go home. When I indicated that I did he simply told the other person in our party that I was ill and then grabbed my hand and led me out to get some air. It's compeletly wonderful to have a friend that is so understanding and caring. When I got home I took my prn, and went to bed and then I was fine. Before I would have had a panic attack.
I guess what I'm saying is that I know medication isn't for everyone, but that I'm glad that I gave it a try and am happy that it's helping me to be able to live a fuller life.
The look the other girl threw me was incrediably hostile. I don't know if she was looking down on me because I take medicine daily or if she was just upset that I challenged her assertion. The woman who was thinking about getting meds and I talked a bit, and I told her how mine was helping me. I'm not severly depressed to the point of feeling suicidal for one week out of the month and I can go to class without wanting to run out of the room because there are simply too many people in the class and I feel as if I'm going to have a panic attack. I can actually go to class and concentrate on my work instead of trying not to freak out. I know its helping me and that's what matters.
Even this last weekend it helped. After the Placebo concert (and I'm not sure I'd have even been able to do the concert if my meds hadn't been working) we went down to Bounce (a local gay club) to watch the drag show and dance. It was completely packed and sitting at the bar area, where there were barely any people helped me calm my nerves...before I'd have been straight out the door and trying to calm my breathing down. I ended up going back in and standing with my friends and it was a bit much for me, but I didn't panic. The really nice thing was James kept an eye on me, asked me if I was alright and then when I indicated that I didn't think I could do dancing asked if I wanted to go home. When I indicated that I did he simply told the other person in our party that I was ill and then grabbed my hand and led me out to get some air. It's compeletly wonderful to have a friend that is so understanding and caring. When I got home I took my prn, and went to bed and then I was fine. Before I would have had a panic attack.
I guess what I'm saying is that I know medication isn't for everyone, but that I'm glad that I gave it a try and am happy that it's helping me to be able to live a fuller life.