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I've been mulling things around in my brain a lot lately. I have a lot of school work to catch up on, but am not worried about it. I'll manage to get it done, I always do. I need to buckle down next semester and do really well. I also realize that the next few semesters will be hard because I won't have any literature/english classes and that's going to upset me. Maybe I'll join a book club or something. I don't know.
Club's going well. I'm going to write an article for the newspaper on it. Which is nerve racking as I haven't done anything newspaper related since high school. In high school I edited my own page: The Prose Page, which I created by the way. I also did a lot of Pros/Cons often times writing both the Pro and the Con because sometimes not everyone would turn in their work. So I think I'll do okay, we'll have to wait and see.
I watched The Butterfly Effect for the first time yesterday. Loved! I also went to my cousin's Honor's Band concert. Elizabeth plays the flute and she was one of the three flutes that got a solo! I'm so proud of her. This is the one I remember as a red faced squalling baby and now she's in her teens. She makes me feel old, even though I'm only twenty-one.
I had a very good day today, probably because I got paid and spulrge and took myself shopping. I found these wonderful pictures. The guy who got me my copy of Alpha Flight 106 had a stand at the mall when I went and I got these black and white photes. I got one of James Dean, Brandon Lee cira The Crow, and Fred Astaire. I also got my favorite pic of Marlon Brando. Gah! So happy. I also managed to find the Stanley Kubrick version of Lolita, which I've had on order from the library for over a month now. Guess I'll have to go take my name off the list. I got a Bowie CD and a copy of Gothic Beauty, its a magazine, with a Neil Gaiman interview. I got a few other things too. Oh and yesterday I got a magazine that the library was giving away and it has Rita Moreno on the cover. I feel so materialistic, but at least I'm in a good mood.
I've been kinda bumming lately, not sure what I'm supposed to do with myself. Do I look around and try to get into a college that will give me the major I want or do I stay here and take care of my Grandma and get the Nursing degree she wants me to get? If I left I'd feel guilty because I don't see any of my other family members taking care of her and she's often said that if I no longer lived with her she sees herself at assisted living. If I stay then I might grow to resent her. I'm so conflicted right now because I feel like if I stay I'll never get to live my life and I'd go into it more but I'm starting to tear up and I just don't think I can share what's going through my head without my parents coming off as bad people and it's so not like that.
Club's going well. I'm going to write an article for the newspaper on it. Which is nerve racking as I haven't done anything newspaper related since high school. In high school I edited my own page: The Prose Page, which I created by the way. I also did a lot of Pros/Cons often times writing both the Pro and the Con because sometimes not everyone would turn in their work. So I think I'll do okay, we'll have to wait and see.
I watched The Butterfly Effect for the first time yesterday. Loved! I also went to my cousin's Honor's Band concert. Elizabeth plays the flute and she was one of the three flutes that got a solo! I'm so proud of her. This is the one I remember as a red faced squalling baby and now she's in her teens. She makes me feel old, even though I'm only twenty-one.
I had a very good day today, probably because I got paid and spulrge and took myself shopping. I found these wonderful pictures. The guy who got me my copy of Alpha Flight 106 had a stand at the mall when I went and I got these black and white photes. I got one of James Dean, Brandon Lee cira The Crow, and Fred Astaire. I also got my favorite pic of Marlon Brando. Gah! So happy. I also managed to find the Stanley Kubrick version of Lolita, which I've had on order from the library for over a month now. Guess I'll have to go take my name off the list. I got a Bowie CD and a copy of Gothic Beauty, its a magazine, with a Neil Gaiman interview. I got a few other things too. Oh and yesterday I got a magazine that the library was giving away and it has Rita Moreno on the cover. I feel so materialistic, but at least I'm in a good mood.
I've been kinda bumming lately, not sure what I'm supposed to do with myself. Do I look around and try to get into a college that will give me the major I want or do I stay here and take care of my Grandma and get the Nursing degree she wants me to get? If I left I'd feel guilty because I don't see any of my other family members taking care of her and she's often said that if I no longer lived with her she sees herself at assisted living. If I stay then I might grow to resent her. I'm so conflicted right now because I feel like if I stay I'll never get to live my life and I'd go into it more but I'm starting to tear up and I just don't think I can share what's going through my head without my parents coming off as bad people and it's so not like that.