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I don't know what I'm doing.
I'm supposed to walk (I graduated with two bachelors degrees this summer) on the 18th and I still don't know who I'm giving tickets too. I know I should call my mother and offer her a ticket, but I haven't been able to find the time or the want to do so. I have several friends that want to go besides family members. At first I thought cake and ice cream after, but I couldn't do this at my house cause my grandmother wants nothing to do with my mother after what she's done. I can't do it at my dad's house because well yeah mother again. So I think I'm just giving out tickets and doing nothing afterward.
I'm still annoyed that she was invited to Thanksgiving and didn't show up. My dad's still invited to Christmas Eve dinner so that's good. Except he hasn't Christmas shopped for anyone but my mom in years so we're going this weekend. My grandma's pissed. My dad's trying his best to heal and move on. I think all of us are on egg shells cause this is about when my mom started telling people she was going to divorce my dad this year and wanting us to all keep it a secret till after the holiday so bad memories.
Also after much back and forth my old car finally got inspected. I recieved the estimate of the wear and tear damage, which I had purchased a package to cover, but no apparently they are estimating I'm going to owe them about $602, but that's just the estimate. I'm never leasing a car again. I had a package I bought to cover wear and tear and can't I have a discount for over a month of back and forth with trying to get the car turned in?
I also feel that I suck at this whole relationship thing. I'm working two jobs right now and my priority is my grandma and then dad and then anyone else. I've got a few friends pulling me in diffrent directions and I feel like I just need a week off to clean, write and hide under my covers with some good books. Relationship wise we're all cute and cuddly and that would be good except I'm so busy I rarely see them and when I do I end up sick. They both smoke and I'm allergic. They're careful, they don't smoke around me, but I wasn't even in their house an hour this Sunday and I've been struggling with a sinus infection since. I do care about both of them, but I can't make them my priority and I'd like to be healthy. I don't really know what to do yet.
Mostly I'm just ready for my parents divorce to be over, the dust to settle. I'm ready for December to be over. I want a new year. I need to figure out getting back into school. I want to be back in nursing school sometime next year and I want to get my bills under control (hence the second job) and this whole car situation to have settled itself.
I also need to write. I've hit that grochy because I don't have time to write like I want to point.
I'm supposed to walk (I graduated with two bachelors degrees this summer) on the 18th and I still don't know who I'm giving tickets too. I know I should call my mother and offer her a ticket, but I haven't been able to find the time or the want to do so. I have several friends that want to go besides family members. At first I thought cake and ice cream after, but I couldn't do this at my house cause my grandmother wants nothing to do with my mother after what she's done. I can't do it at my dad's house because well yeah mother again. So I think I'm just giving out tickets and doing nothing afterward.
I'm still annoyed that she was invited to Thanksgiving and didn't show up. My dad's still invited to Christmas Eve dinner so that's good. Except he hasn't Christmas shopped for anyone but my mom in years so we're going this weekend. My grandma's pissed. My dad's trying his best to heal and move on. I think all of us are on egg shells cause this is about when my mom started telling people she was going to divorce my dad this year and wanting us to all keep it a secret till after the holiday so bad memories.
Also after much back and forth my old car finally got inspected. I recieved the estimate of the wear and tear damage, which I had purchased a package to cover, but no apparently they are estimating I'm going to owe them about $602, but that's just the estimate. I'm never leasing a car again. I had a package I bought to cover wear and tear and can't I have a discount for over a month of back and forth with trying to get the car turned in?
I also feel that I suck at this whole relationship thing. I'm working two jobs right now and my priority is my grandma and then dad and then anyone else. I've got a few friends pulling me in diffrent directions and I feel like I just need a week off to clean, write and hide under my covers with some good books. Relationship wise we're all cute and cuddly and that would be good except I'm so busy I rarely see them and when I do I end up sick. They both smoke and I'm allergic. They're careful, they don't smoke around me, but I wasn't even in their house an hour this Sunday and I've been struggling with a sinus infection since. I do care about both of them, but I can't make them my priority and I'd like to be healthy. I don't really know what to do yet.
Mostly I'm just ready for my parents divorce to be over, the dust to settle. I'm ready for December to be over. I want a new year. I need to figure out getting back into school. I want to be back in nursing school sometime next year and I want to get my bills under control (hence the second job) and this whole car situation to have settled itself.
I also need to write. I've hit that grochy because I don't have time to write like I want to point.